exhaustion..

I am still completely exhausted. I hardly know what I'm doing these days. The days are just flowing together, I am lucky to get a load of laundry done once in awhile. Holly and Sage have been sick so our nights are very, VERY long. Lily hasn't done any homeschooling in about 3 weeks and she's bored to tears being cooped up with sick siblings. My mom is here which is great as far as having her to help me during the day when Doug is working but it's not much fun to be sitting around with sick, CRANKY kids. She's being a real trooper.
I have friends who are bouncing around like Tigger within days of having babies and I have no idea how they do it. Physically I feel fine, as far as I am not having any pain from the delivery, etc...but I just am so run down in every other way and it's all we can do to get through another day. I have been feeling kinda down because I love this time of year and yet I feel it's passing me by and I'm not enjoying it. We love to take walks and enjoy the lights in the neighborhood and that hasn't happened once yet this year. We love to drive and look at lights and bake cookies for friends and neighbors and make Christmas cards...none of these things have happened yet either and I'm sure they won't.
My eyes are loaded with bags under them and I can actually FEEL them!
Yet, through it all, we are so blessed to have sweet Aspen here with us and I realize that in a few weeks, this will all be behind us and we'll be healthy and sleeping and probably talking about baby number 5. Ok, did any of you have a heart attack over that statement?
Well, this is about all I have time for now. G'night and I'll be back when I can!